My Cover's Wearing Thin I Believe

I think I really might have screwed myself over this time.

Thanksgiving break was really great in a lot of ways and was really fun. I got to see my family and lots of Livia and that was all really awesome. Unfortunately, probably what I needed more than anything was a restful break, and that was not the kind of break I had. I came back more tired than when I left, and I left pretty tired.

Today was a struggle to say the least. I've been on the edge of tears for a good part of the day. I just don't have any energy, I'm overwhelmed, I've gotten to the point where I can't hardly even function. I can't focus or even like, read or write hardly because I'm so tired, but I have so much stuff to do I don't even want to think about it. I corrected papers all throughout government and could hardly formulate words, let alone thoughts on my Modern Social Problems quiz, and to make sure I stayed awake in Human Behavior, I made a pros and cons list about being married or single. Who does that? No one does that. I did that. And Jeremy's down my back on the papers I was supposed to have corrected and I have a couple papers due Wednesday, and I was already feeling kind of frustrated about all this, and then I got a call from Kendra asking me to babysit at 7:45 tomorrow morning. Are you effing kidding me? Worst. Timing. Ever. Here was little naive me thinking maybe she wouldn't need me tomorrow and I'd get to sleep in. Instead, I have to go over 3 hours earlier. I nearly had a heart attack at that point. Bleh. I hate the end of the semester.

In other news, I just discovered the genius playlist maker on iTunes, and it's so sweet. It's brought up all these awesome songs that I was totally unaware that I even had! Which is good because I'd say that probably over half of my music has either 1 or 0 listens. However, I am going to go to sleep now. So I shall have to listen to iTunes geniusness later. Because I have to wake up at 7:30 tomorrow :( grrrrrrr.....

Hopefully Tuesday will be a little bit better than Monday. Praying for a sense of refreshment. Also, giving up facebook for awhile. Paul Patton convicted me. Even though his gestures make me wonder if he has parkinson's, he says some pretty wise things, and I don't want to waste as much of my life away on facebook and my phone as I have been. Plus, I do have a lot to do, so it'll probably help with that too. 3 weeks, and then I get a 3 week break. I think I can I think I can...

This is probably the first time in years I've actually gone to bed in the same day I woke up in...