Jehovah Jireh

So today was quite odd, honestly. We had Arbor Games, so the schedule was all messed up. I did my school spirited duty and wore a chipmunk costume and ran around, which was actually quite a lot of fun. Our skit didn't get very high marks, but I'm not taking it too personally, first of all because it's Arbor Games, and second of all because some of the better skits didn't get high ratings, and some of the skits that I thought were dumbest got some of the higher ratings. For all I know they were chosen at random. My school is so ridiculous sometimes. And as much as I try to play if off like I think it's weird, I secretly love it.

I spent about an hour with Jess Clarke today, which was pretty awesome. She's a K-House resident now so I hardly ever see her around. We lost our volleyball game, which was frustrating, but I played really well tonight. It was one of those strange nights where I would just impulsively do random things and they ended up working out really really well and made me look much more talented than I probably actually am.

After that was Deeper. Deeper itself was refreshing and awesome, but for some reason, afterwards, I just felt really lonely. I sat on a bench outside of financial aid office, and just sat there and wrestled with God, asking Him to send me something to help me understand that I was not alone. And He provided. In some slightly strange ways. In that moment, I became aware of a single cricket chirping. I can't explain it, but me and that cricket were connected and he helped me not to feel so lonely. The cricket was there with me, and God was too. It makes me sound crazy that my only companion is a cricket, and I can't really explain it, but it helped. And then God provided me a really meaningful evening with Britany. I've always known Britany was pretty awesome, but we've never had one-on-one time like that, and it was such a huge blessing. So at least for now, as I type this and go to bed, I am assured that I am not alone. And that is what I will hold onto for tonight. Gnite.